r
By
Cheryl
McFadden
This
is
the
story
of
an
actual
victim
of
sexual
assault.
She
would
like
to
remain
anonymous.
Any
similarities
in
this
story
to
that
of
your
own
or
someone
you
know
are
purely
coincidental.
We'll
call
the
victim
Jane.
You
may
have
noticed
that
there
are
many
victims
of
sexual
assault.
It
catches
the
attention
of
newspaper
and
television
reporters,
authors
and
even
movie
producers.
Usually
what
is
portrayed
through
the
media
is
a
factual
representation
of
the
incident
ignoring
the
feelings
and
emotions
of
the
victim(s)
involved.
Authors
and
movie
producers
often
over
dramatize
the
incident
or
portray
it
from
their
point
of
view,
this
is
what
really
happens
.
.
.
It
was
eight
o'clock
in
the
morning
when
the
phone
rang,
Jane
ran
to
pick
it
up.
It
was
"Leslie",
a
good
friend
of
hers
that
lived
far
away.
It
had
been
a
long
time
since
they
had
seen
each
other,
and
she
was
elated
to
hear
her
voice.
Leslie
had
called
to
tell
her
that
her
husband,
"Brian"
was
up
on
a
holiday,
when
he
had
taken
ill
and
had
been
admitted
to
the
hospital.
Leslie's
husband
was
being
released
and
needed
a
place
to
stay
for
the
night.
Arrangements
were
made
for
Jane
to
pick
up
Brian
later
that
afternoon.
The
day
passed
by
and
it
had
come
time
to
pick
up
Brian.
Jane
drove
to
the
hospital
and
found
his
room.
In
Brian's
room
were
some
of
his
friends
that
he
had
been
travelling
with.
He
introduced
them
to
Jane.
Brian
needed
his
suitcase
from
the
hotel
where
he'd
been
staying.
He
asked
Jane
to
pick
it
up
for
him
while
he
got
ready
to
go.
He
suggested
that
Jane
take
"Ben",
one
of
Brian's
friends,
with
her
because
he
knew
where
to
find
the
luggage.
Ben
and
Jane
drove
to
the
hotel
where
Brian
had
been
staying.
On
the
way
they
talked
about
the
city
and
how
much
Ben
liked
it.
They
picked
up
Brian's
luggage
and
headed
for
the
hospital.
They
made
a
stop
at
a
friend
of
Jane's
to
pick
up
a
camera
that
she
had
lent
her.
Across
the
street
was
an
ice
cream
shop
and
it
was
one
of
the
hottest
days
of
the
year
so
An
Innocent
Victim
Ben
decided
to
treat
Jane
to
an
ice
cream.
They
drove
back
to
the
hospital
and
picked
up
Brian.
Ben
mentioned
that
he
had
run
out
of
money
temporarily
and
he
wasn't
sure
where
he
was
going
to
stay
for
the
night
so
Jane
offered
him
her
couch,
after
all
Brian
and
Ben
were
friends
and
she
trusted
Brian's
judgement.
Brian
had
to
go
back
to
his
hotel
to
talk
to
a
friend
of
his
there
about
travel
plans.
Jane
dropped
off
Ben
here
as
he
was
meeting
some
of
his
friends.
He
said
he'd
call
her
later
to
let
her
know
if
he
needed
a
place
to
stay
for
the
night.
Brian
and
Jane
went
home
and
had
dinner
and
later
that
evening
Jane
received
a
phone
call
from
Ben.
He
said
that
he
was
meeting
some
friends
for
a
drink
and
that
he'd
like
to
come
over
later,
but
he
needed
a
ride.
Jane
was
using
her
roomates
car
and
she
didn't
know
if
she's
be
able
to
pick
him
up.
He
said
he'd
cal
1
back
later
and
let
her
know
if
was
going
to
come
over.
Earlier
in
the
day
Ben
had
expressed
an
interest
in
meeting
Jane's
roomate,
"Chelsey".
Chelsey
came
home
from
work
and
Jane
had
told
her
about
Ben
needing
a
ride
and
wanting
to
meet
her
Chelsey
told
Jane
to
go
pick
him
up
and
he
could
watch
movies
with
them.
Jane
called
the
hotel
to
let
Ben
know
that
if
he
needed
a
ride
she
could
pick
him
up
but
Ben
was
out,
so
she
left
a
message
for
him.
Later
Ben
returned
the
call
and
Jane
went
to
pick
him
up.
She
asked
Brian
if
he
wanted
to
come,
but
he
had
just
taken
some
pain
medication
and
was
going
to
bed.
Chelsey
said
that
she
was
awfully
tired
and
she
might
take
a
short
nap.
She
told
Jane
to
wake
her
up
when
she
got
home
if
she
had
gone
to
sleep.
Earlier
that
evening
Brian
had
told
Jane
that
Ben
had
said
that
he
liked
her.
Jane
was
not
interested
in
Ben
and
thought
that
this
would
be
a
good
opportunity
to
tell
him.
She
arrived
at
the
hotel
to
pick
Ben
up.
As
he
got
in
the
car,
it
had
appeared
that
he
had
a
little
to
much
to
drink
but
he
was
not
drunk.
Jane
approached
Ben
about
what
UWU)
"imUU'iLMtt!
1'T""
he
had
said
to
Brian.
Ben
immediately
was
embarassed,
but
he
insisted
that
she
should
like
him.
Jane
could
not
get
it
through
his
head.
She
had
stopped
the
car
at
a
street
light
and
had
tried
to
kiss
her,
Jane
turned
her
head
away
and
told
him
no
that
she
didn't
want
that
from
him.
He
kept
pressing
her
and
she
got
angry
and
asked
him
what
he
wanted
from
her.
He
said
that
he
wanted
to
make
love
to
her
and
Jane's
immediate
response
was
that
was
something
special
and
she
wasn't
about
to
do
it
with
someone
she
had
just
met
and
had
no
feelings
for.
He
left
it
at
that
and
Jane
thought
she
had
finally
gotten
it
through
his
head
that
she
did
not
feel
the
same
about
him.
She
headed
for
home
thinking
that
he
wouldn't
bother
her
anymore
there
because
Chelsey
would
be
there.
They
arrived
at
Jane's
apartment
and
Ben
went
to
the
bathroom,
while
he
was
in
the
bathroom
Jane
went
to
awake
Chelsey.
Chelsey
was
very
tired
and
wouldn't
wake
up.
Jane
was
unsure
of
what
to
do.
She
didn't
want
to
be
alone
with
Ben
because
she
felt
uncomfortable
around
him.
She
called
her
best
friend
to
see
what
she
thought
she
should
do,
but
her
friends
phone
was
not
working.
Jane
sat
down
on
the
couch
and
put
a
movie
on
trying
to
figure
out
what
to
do.
Ben
came
and
sat
down
beside
her,
he
tried
over
and
over
to
kiss
her.
Jane's
heart
was
racing
with
fear.
What
should
she
do?
He
had
moved
very
close
to
her
and
she
was
forced
to
lean
against
him
from
the
lack
of
room
on
the
couch.
Ben
moved
backwards
and
she
lost
her
balance
and
fell
back,
he
tried
to
kiss
her
and
she
thought
if
she
let
him
kiss
her
once
then
that
would
be
enough
and
he'd
leave
her
alone.
She
felt
very
uncomfortable
with
and
told
him
to
stop
it,
and
he
did.
He
whispered
in
her
ear
that
he
wanted
to
make
love
to
her.
Jane
said
she
didn't
know
him
and
that
he
was
moving
to
fast.
She
got
up
and
moved
to
the
other
end
of
the
couch.
She
put
her
feet
up
to
watch
the
movie.
Ben
made
his
move.
He
leaped
on
her
and
she
froze
with
fear.
She
told
him
to
get
off
of
her,
and
he
wouldn't,
she
said,
"No
Ben,
please
don't
do
this!".
She
was
humiliated
and
ashamed
and
feared
that
someone
would
find
her
that
way,
so
she
didn't
scream.
All
she
could
manage
in
hear
state
of
fear
was
to
tell
him
no.
He
told
her
to
be
quiet
or
someone
might
hear
them,
she
said
she
didn't
care,
to
get
off
of
her.
(The
details
of
the
actual
act
are
too
explicit
to
print.)
He
eventually
got
off
of
her.
Jane
sat
up
and
told
him
to
get
his
shoes
on,
he
was
leaving.
She
was
afraid
that
he
might
lurk
outside
her
apartment
if
she
just
told
him
to
leave
so
she
decided
against
her
better
judgement
to
drive
him
back
to
his
hotel.
On
the
way
there
Ben
tried
to
tell
Jane
that
she
was
a
willing
partner
and
she
should
not
be
sorry
for
something
that
they
both
wanted.
Jane
was
very
confused
and
wasn't
sure
what
had
just
taken
place.
All
she
knew
was
that
she
had
been
forced
to
do
something
she
didn't
want
to
do.
On
his
way
out
of
the
car
Ben
told
her
not
to
tell
anyone.
Jane
agreed
to
this
as
she
felt
very
humiliated
and
didn't
want
anyone
to
know.
She
dropped
Ben
off
and
drove
away.
She
appeared
to
be
in
shock
and
started
to
cry
profusely.
She
drove
aimlessly
and
somehow
made
her
way
to
her
best
friends
house,
"Carole".
Carole
was
very
concerned
and
wanted
to
know
what
had
happened.
She
knew
that
Jane
was
going
to
pick
Ben
up
and
concluded
that
he
must
have
done
something
awful.
Jane
just
cried
and
Carole
asked
questions,
but
all
Jane
could
muster
was
a
shake
or
nod
of
the
head.
Carole
consoled
her
some
more
and
made
arrangements
for
Jane
to
pick
her
up
and
go
to
the
hospital
(in
the
morning).
Jane
did
not
want
to
go
at
all,
so
the
compromise
was
to
go
in
the
morning.
Jane
drove
home.
When
she
got
there
she
went
into
Chelsey
's
room
and
explained
what
had
happened.
They
both
sat
on
the
bed
and
cried.
Jane
was
emotionally
and
physically
drained
so
she
decided
to
go
to
bed.
She
awoke
very
early
as
Brian
was
going
out
of
town
and
she
wanted
to
make
him
breakfast
and
see
him
off.
She
went
through
the
morning
as
if
nothing
had
happened.
She
said
good-bye
and
left
to
pick
Carole
up
for
the
hospital.